As far back as I can remember, I've had issues sleeping. Most of the time it's because I have all sorts of thoughts constantly running through my head. In the past they were mostly about sports, school, girls, etc. Now, they vary greatly (although sports and girls remain the common denominator). It's honestly a crap-shoot up there. One minute I'll be thinking about something I read about or saw on TV, the next I'll be thinking about a friend from elementary school that I haven't heard or seen in over a decade.
It's actually getting a little frustrating. I hate going to bed early, but there comes a point when I look at the clock and become pretty depressed about having to wake up in 4-5 hours. It's not fun. What's worse, I feel like my mind and body get more energy as the night goes on. I'll be tired early in the evening, but feel like a pussy if I go to bed early, so I stay up. Not smart. I end up awake for hours...most of the time doing pointless shit.
Anyway, that is all somewhat normal, and I'm pretty used to it. The dreams, however, are new. I'll get a good dream every once in a while, which I assume is pretty standard for everyone. But lately, I've been getting dreams regularly. They're not "scary" or anything...it's just the people in the dreams that intrigue me. Old friends, college acquaintances, random basketball teammates...it's honestly all across the board. In addition, I've been making some questionable decisions and actions while in dreamland...it's weird...nothing gross or disgusting, just flat out retarded.
I'm not really sure if they mean anything (the dreams, that is) or nothing. It has provided pretty good thought-banter during the morning commute, though. It's funny going over my dreams in my mind while on the train. Sometimes I can't remember if it was a dream or a memory, so I might actually be fooling myself. Wouldn't it be fucked up if I had a dream, that was in fact a memory? Can that happen? I've heard of people dreaming of events that haven't occurred yet, sort of like seeing in the future. But can you dream in the past? Can you're subconscious recall memories that were either suppressed or "blacked-out" from the past? I know I've had more than a handful of nights out that were spotty, at best, in my memory at the time...what if they are surfacing now in the form of dreams?
Sorry if I confused you, kind of confused myself at the moment...probably a good point to stop...
Anyway, I'm not too concerned with this, more so interested in what's causing these dreams (or memories) to suddenly start flowing. I don't mind them, but if I'm going to dream, I hope my subconscious can start making them a tad more interesting...toss in some more action, explosions, fast-cars, and please more hot girls (although that's a completely different type of dream, I guess...hahaha).
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